im smashing these games, if you look at the games my deaths are not the problem. My deaths are when i literally have no choice but to make a last ditch effort to win the fight. I know plenty well what I'm doing, some of these games are just straight up unwinnable, and its pretty easy to see that when you look at the actual match
For example, 9 0 lucian with 50+ cs on lane opponent, end 11 4, just forced to try something because ill lose anyway.
Another example, entire team is tilted before it starts even though I'm 3 and 1 and all over the map compared to their jungler. I'm not a psychologist, but if I was I'd have a bit higher winrate. Though that game was a bit faster because i was tired of team bitching and just sat around fountain as soon as they got the 20 minute inhibs
The real problem is the INSANE GAME TIMES, INSANE. ABSOLUTELY WTF?! Take forever. The climbing is not the issue AT ALL, I will easily get up to my main's mmr eventually, it just takes so fucking long because the games are almost an hour each if you count queue + select.