This game has gone really unfair and extremely toxic since the season change, I feel like im bullied

Now some of you might jump straight at me antagonizing me for this. I'm a 20 year old adult, it's normal for me to feel emotionally attached and affect me in real life when I play this. Everything we do in real life is with a purpose and usually we do them because there's emotions involved, even a serial killer doesn't kill someone because "they don't have emotion" they do it because they get the sense of power and control and it makes them feel good.

Back to this I feel like I'm being bullied and treated very unfairly, why you may ask? I'm not talking about verbally being bullied but literally the amount of disadvantage and unfair balance that has been brought to this game with the new changes lets get into detail.

I want to be able to pick a jungle item of stalker blade, or the red one I believe, which is similar helps with cc and increases gank potential as you can smite your opponents working similar towards an ignite and helps you plan ahead and have smite for multiple purposes even in later game. I don't like how riot is trying to encourage counter jungling bringing back an extremely toxic version of flare, at least people by mid/end season realized that yep flare sucks, it's been nerfed and actually ganking lanes will help us get flare stacks faster by assists/kills and that afk farm wont win games, and rarely any champ except, udyr tryn.. so on champs that need basic attacks used FF. With these items you are forced to recall upon level 3-4 so far by experience, making it extremely difficult to gank unless you have really good ability that just requires 1-2 spells usually hardcore cc. now we have items such as rengars trail where enemy team just sits in your jungle and enjoys the extra cool down, bonus gold, bonus health/mana regen, in other hand if this "enemy" has a team that is struggling and needs ganks their jungler is enjoy afk farm, which can really go both ways, and each way hurts one side either way without a fair competition. Extra stats for getting dragon it's just bullshit and unfair and makes me think they had udyr in mind when they built this item, so what does this mean? oh yeah so many champs will hit rock bottom taking a trip to visit urgot. It's just bullsh.it idc what you say some junglers are just weak and can't take it when they get invaded/counter jungled makes it extremely stressful, so where does this take sweeper? oh yeah to the "useless" section because you have to carry a ward trinket to not let your ass get caught off guard, does this really help you? hmm not really just saved your ass having to ditch your buff half way leaving a delicious juicy buff to be grabbed when you tanked and took all the damage. if it's not changed why fix it? does riot like encouraging single player mechanics? because I feel like these mechanics are just placed to make you play and communicate with the A.I similar to single player without involving team much, wasting time chasing a stupid frog like down mid lane for very small amount of gold for few seconds of vision, we don't need millions of bullshit add-on stats when fallen into wrong hands all at once, (blue red, drag, sight, baron, extra cc, extra cool down). Once map control is lost you're fu.cked lost drags, barons why they enjoy stacking their extra drag stats. decreasing chance of come back unless enemy is retarded and throws. Competitive fair game lengths are increases by minimum of 10minutes, there's literally TOO MUCH to do, too many objectives to take. Some of you will say "well that's good means more opportunities to make come backs" wrong when you have no map control and behind can't do shi.t, come on I play this game for its simplicity unlike dota, please bring back the time where it was 2 vs 2 vs 2 vs 2 vs 1 vs 1 where a logic called "meta" existed now you have to follow a trend or elss you will be knocked down and antagonized for playing differently, basically you're playing for others not yourself making you feel empowered. I'm sorry to throw a wall of text at you but I'm upset I don't think I will play this game anymore or as much (even though this game is like a piece of sh.it that just refuses to get flushed down the toilet) I hope you understand me rather than slander me or try to come up with ways to prove me wrong rather than understanding my perspective, sorry for the huge wall of text.