can't even force myself to enjoy this game

I abused rageblade xinxoa one game and now I can't even soloque anymore without getting placed against plats. I know whats coming in the comments "get good" but its at the point where I can't even breath without some broken meta pick being used and there just went another 20 minutes of my life.. and a beautiful game down the barrel. Its to the point where I can't even see the beauty in this game, the first two levels define the next thirty minutes. I just want to sit back and enjoy this game but now I have that xin game permanently on my profile. Riot really wanted me to hate my life tonight well congrats because I'm broken. I've could have been working on my cosplay or doing anything with my life, but trying to learn a new champion is just too much for you riot? I have to learn new champions when I'm getting dehumanized by a full team of plats. I sure do feel happy about myself. made me regret the hundreds of dollars that I gave this company.