Ladder anxiety

I've been stuck in s3 then s2 then back to s3 then to s2. Well 2 weeks ago I got back to s2 and then this crap started. I started playing normals to relax and not worry about losing lp. Now I feel like I play better and with more confidence in normals. It sucks because my gameplay in the past month has skyrocketed. I believe I am gold material now but now all of a sudden my energy to play ranked has been drained. I think about loading ranked and I just feel like turning my pc off. Feels bad