This makes me tired and sad

I started play League some time ago and I said hey what a cool game and grew passionate about it. Everything at the beginning is shiny and wonderful and everything you do you overthink to say wait a minute, what did I do wrong, how can i get better, lemme analyse the game I had and find the flaws, lemme analyse the meta and see how can I get to the next step, but that was long time ago.

Then I experimented about the saltiest part of LoL, and that was when I switched from "having a laugh with friends playing the game" to "fuck dude why did you went there alone 1v5 you stupid feeder!".

Now, my games are full of bullies that like to taunt, spam emote, laugh at me just laning there trying to get to my 10 CS one minute into the game. It's full of people clearly under my level that get paired with me in my ranked games and at the 100th mistake they do, I'm like, man, are you having a bad day? lemme try to give you suggestions and everything I get back is tg or you cnt piece of sht u think you know better or stfu retarded. I learnt not to get too angry off this game because at the end of this day it is just a game, but I hardly remember when the gameplay was fun, when the community was nice (has it ever be?), when there was a chance to play someone and be in disadvantage and still make a difference, but it's not anymore.

This game is not fun anymore, this game is not healthy right now, this game is a game, after all. And I'm tired, tired but sorry. I'm sorry because I remember when it was fun and every now and then I remember why I liked it: the teamplay, the funny jokes between teammates, the skills it take, the calculations, the new stuff, the laughs with friends. And now?

Every ARAM game is about who has the most CC composition, every 3v3 (I sincerely love that mode and rank mostly only there) game, is full with guys that know nothing about that and try new champions in it, it isn't rare to hear "we don't need jungler, it's 3v3" "supports do not exist in 3v3" "no we don't need an AP", and get me lose everytime, every 5v5 is full of people that taunt/spam emote/laugh, and when they eventually win of course they write down "ez", which makes me very happy to know that they are laughing at my gameplay and that they find easy to lane against me, yeah I love that. 3v3 ranked is pure forgotten by anyone, I always find people that...are having a bad day - let's put it nicely. Every time I play. There's one. Having. A. Bad. Day. (enemy team, on other hand, is full of emote spammers and laughers)

So yeah, very cool game. I like to think that every penny I've spent on this game are worth me anger problems, sadness and irritability. Gj.