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Inner Toxicity [Rant?]

Mindworm Jim·6/4/2017, 1:05:07 AM·2 votes·414 views

This is a little abnormal for the Player Behavior forum but I figured it fit best.

This isn't about the things people say to each other in chat. There are plenty of places to discuss that. This is about awful shit I say to myself. Because I know I suck at this game. That I'm a complete screw-up, and that in half my games my best course of action is to stay in the fountain so the enemy team doesn't get gold and exp for killing me. I'm terrified of playing carries, because I can't handle the pressure. I'm expected to be the one to do the damage and win the game for the team. But I know I can't, I'm just going to let them down. Better to have someone who knows what they're doing play that role while I absorb enemy attacks for them.

I hide myself in bot games or ARAM because bot games don't matter and in ARAM you can write off a shitty game to team composition. But even then I know that I've lost several games for my team because I just completely fucked up playing my champ and I hate it. I hate the feeling of frustration and helplessness.

Because I feel like I'm not really playing League, I'm just kind of watching from the side. But I WANT to play. I want to play League, and play ranked, and throw myself in to the grand experience this rad game has to offer. summoner 1

3 Comments

NinjaGuy696/4/2017, 1:09:04 AM1 votes

I'm not going to give you a corny piece of advice like "Just believe in yourself!" or "Positive mentalities make for positive outcomes!" buddy. But I will say that if you're curious, then try out a ranked game or two. Play normal draft and the rotating game modes. League of Legends won't be around forever so you might as well have fun now while we can. If you have negative experiences, then just shrug it off, keep cool and do you. No need to miss out on the fun because of anxieties. Up to you though buddy.

KORGtuners6/4/2017, 8:09:05 AM1 votes

Just keep breathing and you will survive.

Kaden9tails6/4/2017, 9:30:34 AM1 votes

Lol I totally get it. But don't get caught up in your teams reactions if you make a misplay or two. If you feed or something, well of course that sucks, but just know that we're all in the learning state. Learn and prosper my guy. Also, remember, League is a game. If somebody is flaming you just respond with some stupid stuff, for example.

Flamer: Omfg fizz fed reported.

Me: I agree completely, Llama toenails.

Idk, just have fun with it. (This was really corny.)