I understand what you're saying but let me explain myself and my situation more. I'm being 100% honest when I say since my 14 day ban I've been on the most positive behavior (For at least 200 games) to the point where I'd get honored every game. A few days ago I got a notice saying my honor (which was a shitty level 0 dishonorable) was improving. This is largely due to the fact that I finally realized how effective muting someone was.
This was literally the only game since that ban that I demonstrated toxic behavior (which is why it's the only game I got banned for, while most people have like 3 games of a giant wall of text), and it was literally to a player that was flaming me nonstop early but I was ignoring him. I simply told him to stop dying and play safe top and that I was coming to help him, but he'd still just flame me nonstop and eventually i went off (for the first time since my 14 day ban which was a month ago) on him before muting him. As a jungle main, I deal with constant toxicity amd flame every game simply because they are losing lane. This is the worst player I encountered since where I let my emotions get the better of me and just went off on.
This is why after I muted this guy my chat looked like this.
Geneseid: caitlyn
Geneseid: group with us
Geneseid: the kled
Geneseid: xd
Geneseid: lol
Geneseid: this olaf
Geneseid: i actually cant do anything cause hes fed out his ass
Geneseid: lol
Geneseid: he has no flash now
Geneseid: group
Geneseid: lol
Geneseid: group
Geneseid: around ryze
Geneseid: lol
Geneseid: why are caitlyn and kled never with us
Geneseid: yeah
Geneseid: kled is our frontline
Geneseid: gg
Geneseid: no top lane
Even before I was arguing with this one player, I'm still discussing strategy with my team. Yes, in the beginning I said imply ryze mid sucks, but how can that be regarded as toxic when I'm just expressing what I think about it. I ate my pride and congratulated him when I realized he knew what he was doing. I don't display anger or harassment to anyone except my top laner this game. Even when I asked why caitlyn and kled (who I muted) were never with us, it wasn't me being toxic because I was actually discussing strategy with my team.
Geneseid: lol
Geneseid: wanna ward
Geneseid: do something
Geneseid: yeah cause you went ryze mid
Geneseid: mid lane he sucks
Geneseid: stop dying top please
Geneseid: play safe top please
Geneseid: stop fighting him
Geneseid: because you're fucking inting
Geneseid: and i want to win
Geneseid: you're 1/4
Geneseid: stfu
Geneseid: bot ward
Geneseid: gj ryze
Geneseid: wish you didnt feed
Geneseid: 2/6
Geneseid: ROFL
Geneseid: 2/6
Geneseid: ROFL
Geneseid: 2/6
Geneseid: ROFL
Geneseid: caitlyn
Geneseid: stay with us
Geneseid: or that'll happen every time
Geneseid: wow
Geneseid: lol
Geneseid: gj feeding top btw
Geneseid: not my fault you suck
Geneseid: and cant win lane
Geneseid: im not obligated to babysit you
Geneseid: you low elo tard
Geneseid: get muted
I really wish I simply muted him when I first noticed he was toxic at first but I always try to get the better of my team as a jungle main and ensure them I can help them (this is why I started improving in my honor, because when people would say "we lost our bot lane fucking sucks" I'd be like "Don't worry we got late just ward have faith". This guy simply flamed me whenever I tried and I, like I said, let my emotions get the better of me.
I understand the consequences of my actions and I'm fully ready to just make a new account (I just recently started playing), but I'm just explaining the circumstances of my ban in context.