I was another Toxic player

Well guys im basicly just a day away from my 2 week ban for being toxic and even tho I hate that I lost a lot of solo q time that would have helped me get out of bronze or not, Im proud and I want to thank riot for banning me, why because 3 days does not change anything on your personality its just basicly like meh i will be back in 3 days I can level up another acc, but 2 weeks make you think, oh come on why do I get banned 2 weeks for just saying crap, and then I realized something my brother said that I sucked and that I would never be able to do something related to the thing that I most love apart from family, League, and it hurted than even tho being a pro or work at riot is my dream, and just some words kind of put you down like that and also I noticed that I said some really mean things to this xerath which well said he was going to carry and at the end he just fed but still i crossed the line because blaming him for being bad with Xerath doesnt make him better doesnt make me better, I called him noob idiot b* mother**, and above all I felt better than him, And I might have been better than him as a player, but I didnt act better as a person, Because I had bad games and I got raged like hell and I was like just stop, just let me play my game, and I still want that but I noticed that I didnt even give that to other players, I could have told him that Hey dude since you are not doing really good, what about you try to build some MR item so that you can hold lane till I can roam, but I didnt do that, why I dont know well probably cause I thought that my help wasnt going to fix anything that I shouldnt waste my time on helping a ´´noob´´ but in reality I should have done the opposite, give some hope to that person cheer him up tell him dude just concentrate you got this come on dude but I didnt.... But now I learned my lesson and I swear on my account that I will not rage, I will not be toxic, I will help make this comunity better starting by me. Pray to the bronze god so that I can carry with haha:)