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My Tribunal Review, and what lead to My "Toxicity"

Durty Rotten Kid·7/16/2015, 8:26:58 AM·1 votes·834 views

Even the kindest and most patient can sometimes lose their grip.. In this situation they are given the option to A. Blame team for everything B.Freeze and Find only ways to lose. C. Learn From mistakes

I often find myself reading the summoners codes, i am fond of them.. I feel everyone should follow them. I do everything i can to be a team player. Round after round though, i have found my self at the epicenter of something worse then elo hell.... I call it Brainless battle.

So first thing that happened, In this order of events. Was a good morning I had recently placed silver three in ranked I was stoked, i was so patient so i wouldnt screw up and get bronze.. I waited for perfect moments To play so i would be able to Maintain a good score. But when im not playing ranked i often play team builder looking for partners for a future ranked team. Solo que can be tough. You are always the odd man out... You are one, with out a valid voice.

In the first one i played that morning i played syndra, saying i was going to take it slow. On team builder i was On a small losing streak. What happened really sucked... They looked at my match history Even though they gave me the spot. Saying "I got a bad feeling about this." It immediately Made me feel separate from everyone else. Had i done Something wrong? I started getting nervous, i felt like my whole team was constantly clicking their map to watch me Screw up and point it out. And guess what? I started screwing up.. Its not that i wanted to. I just felt pressure to impress my team so i'd be part of their team. One death, they started getting upset. One or two had mentioned a small few things... I was playing it safe with an ancient Coin, I held my turret, Sure i wasn't getting kills... But i was trying to make my laner afraid of me. It was working until a gank came in.. And he dove to deep in and i thought my team mate was going to die and feed my lane.. I so i tried to save.. I died, and They wouldnt stop blaming me after that.. But i had lost the game for them before it even started... What was i supposed to do? I could Mute... But now we lack Firm Communication and understanding. I could play slow and ignore them, but then they say I'm not working with the team... But none of them had worked with me at all.. The game hadn't even started and they were already Verbally saying "I got a bad feeling about this." Acting like they were all nervous about me.. This outcasted feeling, cost me the game.. Cost the team the game...Yet i looked back as they started telling me how we lost, but the nexus hadn't fallen yet. What did they mean we lost? Why dont we just all play it safe and split lane and overwhelm their base?

They fed a few times.. No biggie if they do it.. But Now as i try to split push, They're afraid im going to feed, and ping me away over and over, Keeping me away from my chance to catch up on Side lane farm, that was not being tended.. Then When i am with the team.. i'd end up being focused.. Die.. "Damnit syndra.. Your so far behind on Cs! Why did you build coin?! FF at twenty.."

This started me first being placed into Silver four.. and then shortly after it led to a 30 game losing streak. In every Game we lost, I just asked them to be prepared. I'd be blamed either way.. So i figured at least i could be a team player. and try to help them Watch map while not getting killed.

The last two rounds i played, I was Syndra against Fizz. I was doing very well, Fizz was terrified He wouldnt come any where close, Each lane had their towers fall. and mine stood unharmed, My fizz Behind By 3 levels cause he left lane looking for farm that was "Safe" I broke his morale.. and then my bottom fed him with two kills.. and blamed me. I told them.. Where are your Jungle wards? Before the game started i told them to have a plan.

Not one person had an escape plan. And then i began dying. because i was trying to Make up for their losses, or to protect them and keep them safe under turret. This is toxic i suppose.. Can i have feed back on all of this.. Is this fair? Could i just as well Report them For Negative attitudes or unskilled players?

3 Comments

Sarutobi7/16/2015, 9:02:08 AM2 votes

Honestly everyone has bad games, and i too would feel a bit uneasy/nervous when i lose a few games and try and get back in. the most appropriate thing you can do is try and stay positive! You psyched yourself out and was in a negative attitude to begin with. Did they need to state their opinions? no, but you could have done the right thing and just let it be? heck instead of thinking of that as a negative think of it as a positive. If they think it might be bad, change it up and make them eat their words! When you stick with a negative attitude its always going to be there. you may not notice, but then every little mistake is going to make you think of it as something very big! You also need to realize that in a game like this there has to be a winning and a losing side. You will be on both sides of the coin! as will everyone who plays not only this game but other types of competitive game!

KORGtuners7/16/2015, 9:20:59 AM2 votes

Hm. It is going to be hard, but you do not retaliate. Do not mute. Do not report. You ignore all the bad things. While trying to add positive things to the team.

When they say "I have a bad feeling" you reply "Don't worry I will try my best".

Never ever go into the start of a game negatively. Notice where you said "In every Game we lost, I just asked them to be prepared. I'd be blamed either way"? You went into those matches already admitting defeat. Look at it from a different angle. If someone else had said the same thing you did, how would you feel? I am guessing you would not bet money on winning that game? Think about it. The game hasn't started. There is nothing to blame.

From my point of view it seems you fell into depression. Natural thing to do. The problem is more depression won't fix your depression. You needed distraction or positivity. But hey welcome to life. It is much easier to preach than to practice.

ICRockets7/16/2015, 4:11:19 PM1 votes

I'd be worried if I had a dumb-fuck mid start with a support item, too.