I'm giving everything I got....

Hello everyone, this post is strictly for advice or teaching! I am not in any way asking for handouts. Let's start with some back story, I was first introduced to LOL back in 2010 by a friend, at that time I was 14 years old. In 2012 I made my own account just for fun, then in 2014 I started paying more attention and trying harder to rank up the Solo Q ladder. Last season I made it to Silver 3 and pre-season I made it to Gold 5. But now this is where it gets personal( Again I am not asking for any handouts.) Ever since I was young, I wanted to play at a professional level, but I wasn't fortunate enough to have my own Internet or even a decent laptop to run any games and practice. I'm currently 19 years old, at the age of 16 I was diagnosed with something called "Sciatica". (Lower Spine problems) This was a big problem with school and traveling to the library to play games. At 17 I dropped out of school because I fell too far behind because of my back, about a year ago my mom hooked up internet for me because she supported my gaming desire to become a professional gamer. Though the problem is that I tilt easily, get angry and end up getting frustrated if I lose that it effects multiple games. I really, desperately want to one day be able to play at LCS or really any professional gaming event so that I can be proud of myself and make my mom proud as well. I have the strive and the patience to learn and progress through the LOL ladder if anyone is willing to lend some advice or teach me a few things. I'm giving everything I got, I want to prove thoughs who laughed at me and called me names for wanting to do something I've dreamed of doing since I was young wrong.

P.s. I do apologize for this long, cheesy paragraph....It's just I don't have any other options and I really want to succeed.

Thank you for taking your time to sit down and read this, it really does mean a lot to me.

-Steven.