Could use some advices on my situation

Hello all i have a problem in game, My games on toplane are the same everygame, i'm first pick, get counterpicked, enemy toplaner have ignite, i'm ahead in cs, even with the counter matchup and the ignite i usually have the kill pressure cause i'm better but enemy jungler camp me. My jungler literally int me (like my game as Aatrox VS Kayle, first time i weeks i have positive matchup even if he's not that great i was happy, my Lee Sin came 5 time under turret to suicide and was saying "lag" my duo said, yeah i have chat disabled, better things Riot made last times) or my jungler is AFK farm or he's still 2 seasons in the past when botlane was the most OP role and camp bot to finally see his fed AFK getting killed in 2 secs by the fed toplaner and flames me who tried his best while he was never here to help, and the game is lost. I'm sick of it, the worst is not that this is happening, the worst is that junglers knows about toplane, i'm getting camped all games, why do ALLY junglers don't know toplane existence. Last time we played as 5, my friend gave me ONE kill early, 10 minutes later i was winning 1v2 while destroying inhib, i'm just disgusted. So i have these times where i say "fuck it, i don't like this role, i don't take much pleasure and i miss toplane pretty fast but let's go jungle" and i start winning cause maybe i'm bad at warding, i'm bad at objectives, but i gank everywhere, i'm fed, my whole is fed and we win, and even without objectives and wards i'm better than 90% of the junglers i have in my games that's insane. But i miss toplane very fast and want to come back to toplane, but what i was writing before happen again and again and i'm tilted, i'm the kind of silence tilter, if you're in vocal with me you hate me, i just never answer i'm just mute and in my head i'm like "i stop after this one i'm too tilted for tonight" but this is my first game of the night it's 9:00 PM xDDDD, i don't flame (mostly cause of fullmute all before and now chat disabled cause i'll be honest sometimes that's ticking me i want to really hard), i don't spam ping, i don't spam ff, i don't know, never did something bad in my life but my karma is negative and i like to say i'm just cursed in league of legends. So i have a choice to make, do i stay jungle taking no pleasure but winning more, or am i going toplane the role where i take pleasure but lost more cause of junglers issues ? I want your advices, your opinion on this, if someone have the same thing happening tell me that could help, and that's already helping a little to talk about this. Have a great day :) [sg-miss-fortune]