I've been playing League for 5 years and I'm still horrible
Hey.. this is my first time posting to the League forums, however this post is a bit long overdue.
I've been playing League since the start of Season 3, and throughout this span, I've mainly played Mid and Top. I used to play a plethora of champions in normals, but whenever I play ranked the top champs I found myself playing for Mid and Top combined were Zed, Twisted Fate, Ahri, Shen, and Riven, and towards the end of Season 7 and before the upcoming Season 8, I've mainly focused on these champs and dropped any other unnecessary champ for each role.
For some time, I've been losing faith in myself as a League player, as my normal game streaks have been extremely inconsistent (every win is followed by a loss in normals, and currently have 20 more losses than wins) and in ranked, despite my usual good games in normals, I always end up being a bit of a feeder on my team even despite my efforts to maintain control and stay safe.
It's seriously draining me mentally, as it's been a while since the first time I've sat down with a keyboard and mouse and played this game, however despite all the time I've spent on this game, I still find myself losing out to a majority of Silver I players. I also can't remember the last time I've actually been on a winning streak.
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong guys. So much time spent and I'm still getting destroyed by people within my elo. I'm incapable of carrying my teams and I'm often a feeder myself.
I just don't know, it's like no matter what, I'm set to stay in Silver and only decay more and more. I've watched many guides, seen many stories of people struggling to carry their "bad teammates", however my own struggles consist of not being a "bad teammate", but... Idk it's just so pointless now.
Another thing to probably note is that back then (season 4ish) I would inconsistently play ranked; finish placements, just play normals for weeks after, and play only when I'm at risk of inactivity. Now I've been pushing myself to consistently play, however my recent horrible performances are making me question even playing ranked, and I really wanna enjoy League competitively, however I just seem incapable of advancing my current standpoint.