How to deal with tilt?
Lately, I've been performing very poorly in League of Legends. I've lost a lot of games. I feel like I only won a handful because I was carried.
I've died a lot in my last few games or so. (I play mainly Normal Blind because Ranked is extremely harsh and toxic and I'm not that good in competitive environments.)
Sometimes, it's because I might engage on 3 or 4 enemies as Nasus, not knowing that my team wasn't ready to follow up. I'm okay with taking the blame. It was my fault that we lost an objective or came out worse in a teamfight. Sometimes, it's because one of the other players is amazingly good at a champion and can 1v5 us blindfolded with one hand. I'm okay with that. They deserve the kills they got.
Then there's the feeders. I'm okay with people learning champions and it turns out that they're not that good with them. But it's just so frustrating to find that the enemy ADC/Jungler got First Blood and a second kill. Now they're 700 gold ahead, and that 700 gold lets them snowball very hard onto us. In that situation, I die a lot because the ADC got fed and that translated into other lanes as well.
I get very tilted and say crude things in chat. Later, I look back and feel guilty because I'm blaming others for my mistakes.
I've tried taking breaks, playing soothing music, going to other games, playing an instrument, and making a comfortable environment. It doesn't help. I'm still tilted for at least until the next IRL day.
Please help me. I don't know what to do to prevent/treat tilt. Any suggestions?