How often do you experience the "Not my fault" Losses?

I'm over it at this point, I've accepted the mmr RNG The plat jinx on the enemy team vs my s1 kaisa with 150 ping The difference between a yasuo on your team and on the enemy team The ones who flame you down until you lose enough sanity to just flame back The ones who just refuse to listen to your calls The ones who try their best and still fail The ones who gave up and constantly insist you give up too It just feels like a giant RNG clown fiesta hearthstone 2.0 Are the players matched with you going to be garbage? Are they going to be your skill level? Are they going to be much better?

After every ranked loss, i feel demoralized, i feel like i'm constantly getting beaten on, slowly but surely ruining dwindling away my incentive to climb, to feel good about myself after doing well and winning me a ranked game

Why does one of my teammates have 1100 mmr and another 1700? The system is terrible, Give me 10 players with the exact same MMR, put players in promos against other players in promos.

I've been feeling so happy with my performance when learning to play cass, even when losing, but that happiness is so incremental when it compares to the demoralization i feel from actually losing the game i tried so hard to win My sanity has gone from a grape to a raisin, i start feeling more and more inclined to just flame back whenever someone flames me It sucks, i dont want it to be like this, where's our incentive?

I can't train the players im going in with, I can't help them out, I can't inspire them, It's just 9 other bots whose existence we could care less for My friends quit, and those few that do play are just even lower than my league.

I wish i could prove my worth But at this point im just f*cking addicted