I've had a dream...

For as long as I can remember. Ever since I first played this game 5 years ago I always knew I wanted to be pro.

For years i've put countless hours into this game. Even went homeless once because of it. Because I was dedicated at being the best. Going to the LCS to play or becoming a famous streamer.

It's always been my goal.

I'm very sad. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I always read the patches. I'm always up to date on the game. I just don't understand how come someone like me who has been around almost since the beginning cannot get to pro levels. I have thousands of hours on this game alone.

the highest i've ever been in gold 2. I always get to about gold 2-3 and I can't move up past that. I'm not sure why. My creep farm is at plat lvl. I average 6 creeps per minute. I usually get first blood in games. I play top and mid mainly. I play the champs and builds that are the meta because I want to win.

I want to say it's really bad teams that keep me where i'm at but let's look at the pros. They can go from bronze and go straight to challenger no problem.

WHAT DO THESE PEOPLE KNOW THAT I DON'T KNOW. That's what I don't get.

I have had 3 accounts banned in the past. I get super toxic when I get to gold 3 and can't move up so much so that I get banned. So now i'm leveling this one. I want someone to help me.. this is a cry for help. I need some guidance. I need to know my weaknesses. Where i'm lacking. If anyone out there is willing to kind of coach me.. I WOULD MAKE IT WORTH YOUR WHILE.

Hell I will even take some tips and suggestions here. I have a college degree but I don't want to work a normal job. I want to become a famous streamer doing what I love. Which is playing league of legends.. Idk i'm kind of all over the place...