mmr in draft ? need help
ok so im a little confused. I was at 40 wins and 40 losses at one point. The games were fun, and very close most of the time. I noticed when i got above a 50/50 win rate ( 42 wins/40 losses) The games did get harder, which is great. The problem is i had a few games in a row where 1-2 people get mad at eachother and then afkd. I got kind of fustrated myself to be honest and didnt play well the next few games where people were arguing. The more i had bad games the worse games got it seems. Like im no longer losing because the other team is good. Im losing because im not a god and cant carry feeding/afk bot lane. So if you you check my match history it looks pretty tilting. I mean i dont even know at this point if im playing terrible or im not doing enough. Last game i literally took a reset, muted everyone and tried my best the WHOLE game through. In my heart I feel like i did the right things. But maybe a KEEGUN would say otherwise? Very strange. Played many games/sports and have never been so confused on what im doing wrong! I WILL ADMIT THIS I can really only play GREAT about 2 games a day. The rest i feel stressed. So i am making the adjustment of playing only 2 games a day until i have a better understanding on whats going on.
I would like to know if there is actually somthing going on with the MMR because of my gameplay/behavior