Veteran Player Who Still Cannot Perform in League of Legends
Why is it that after several seasons of playing ranked to get better borders I find myself unable to play "my game" or consistently be a "competitive" member of the team. Inconsistent maybe because I didn't, and still don't, know enough about a game I've played, now, well over 30k hours. How could that be?
I got silver season 3, gold season 4-5, an ecstatic platinum in season 6, and then another platinum in season 7, and lastly a mundane platinum in season 8. I even tried to reduce my inconsistency by relying on one champion in ranked to get my lp in preseason 7 and onward. It felt great to have a goal, like getting to diamond, that was more easily accomplished. Just get better at the champion. However my champion saw a large decrease in success, and during the success my champ was banned out, I was forced to dodge for the good of the whole.
Blah-Blah-Blah and so forth. However, I have felt extra frustrated from losing an even matchup horribly. Cost my team the game, and my attitude for the night. After playing, and honestly enjoying, LoL for the better half of 30,000 hours I find myself stagnated unlike I've never been before. I regularly play with 90ms on a champ I'd prefer to have 60, and intermittent packet lose makes me question my sanity. I commit to plays I would tell myself aloud not to, and the worst part is sometimes I can play well. But when I freak out for a moment there goes my bounty and all of a sudden the game is even again or I may even be losing due to my mismanaged waves.
This is now much longer then I thought It'd be I just have a final thought. Is it REALLY just grinding games to diamond? Is there a ceiling for skill and I've hit it? Not only that but rebounded back half-way down the height of the room.
Edit: I mean personal ceiling for skill because obviously there are millions of people better then me.