failed to get to silver
pity post. I'm pretty sad that 170 games later I lost a rank this season. lost a shit ton of games tonight and generally am growing less and less happy with playing this game. I wish i never gave rito my fucking money for rp considering that this game has turned out to be nothing but a shit fest of a waste of my time. The worst is I keep coming back after breaks thinking not that I've cleared my head it'll be better, and inevitably it ends with me hitting a point where I have to stop playing because I realize this game ruins my mindset. It's impossible to make measurable progress. IDK how anyone does it. I only have a few hours to play games a week and this one is so challenging and hopelessly fucking impossibly complex. I love that side of it but at the same time, there needs to be something meaningful to do thats not waste my life getting stomped in ranked bc the only way to climb bronze is to play thousands of fucking games and pray I get better playing with people who play badly. The only way to learn to be better is to play with and against better fucking players RIOT. There needs to be a freaking way to train or something in reasonable time constraints. FUCK getting stomped over and over. Fuck win-streaks that give you hope followed by loss streaks that knock you right back to where you started. Fuck this stupid system for being bad and a waste of time. Fuck me for thinking I'd get better by playing consistently. clearly I needed to dump 20 game a day in to be any better than b5. Fuck that I have shit to do that doesn't make me want to punch my keyboard.
TLDR: RAGE I'm a bitch cause i'm fucking tired of lol and burned out. I know I'm bad but there no paths to getting better that I can take as a casual video gamer and I just hate the way this game shits on my state of mind so hard.