This game makes me feel guilty.. Help

Ok. Im done. Am I THAT good at this game (after a 1 month) or my bad luck snowballs hard?

Im starting too feel guilty, that I could have changed the faith of the every game.

This is ridiculous.

Every time when I go TOP and "rule" there, and Im doing very well, like first death at 20 min, meanwhile MID IS WRECKED ALREADY and we loosin like 0/10 LMAO, I dont look often on the score board so im always shocked.

Doesnt matter I finished TOP already, we gonna loose.

Ok, I dont always want to "rule" so often I play MID too. Whenever I go MID and defend well (95% of enemy midders give up after 10 mins and go gank) It doesnt matter because TOP AND BOT ARE WRECKED ALREADY.

Like, I cant be on the three lanes in the same time, come on!, Im playing solo, so I must trust people I get paired with.

I feel guilty that I should pick another champ, but wherever I go, other lanes are already in coma status.

I dont know why, even 100% sure games are lost, like Yasuo 0/13 on Teemo, this is ridiculous.

Anyone had that phase? Is that the beggining of being a pro? Like Faker when he realized theres no more challenge for him and went LCS?