I try and try but i dont know why

I just try to play and be nice. I try to be positive. i try to play my best. But all for nothing. I don't get a single honor and I'm left out of all the rewards because of one stupid mistake. This honor system is just so awful when i solo q because people in premades just honor each other. And I don't even have fun playing with my own friends anymore because it doesn't even count for honor.