I started to lose more and more the love on this game

Am I the only one? I really started to lose to love on this game, like i became more toxic more than I've ever been and that makes me not want to play the game seeing myself getting tilted constantly . Mostly cause i only lose lp, like if i lose 3 games I need like 5 to 6 games to get to the same point. As well as how it makes no sense that I keep getting people that r still learning the game,like when I'm doing good I get a average team, and when I'm on a win streak i get a team that does not know how to play, are trolling or they afk and this happens more than it should. For me the "fair" thing to happen is if I am losing I get a group that is also not doing good so i can learn my mistakes try to fix then and get better, if I'm on a win streak tho I should be getting a better group but that never happens like usually in my third i will have at least 2 people either trolling,new or afking one day I got 3 in one game actually. I don't have as much fun on the climb cause its not enough I'm no plat or diamond, I cant 1v5 so i don't understand how,like i just had to 3v5 and the enemy mid laner was fed, like from carrying to just nothing I could do I just wish being able to enjoy the game, not just when I'm with my friends trying crazy builds, but playing a ranked game as well ,like I already took week breaks from this game 4 times this year cause of how toxic I got and had to stop , I wish i could as well recommend this game to someone but i just cant since I lost my love for it now i just like it.

btw ik ive been carried sometimes but that barrelly happens (I wish t happened more often) (and im at silver yes) and ik my voice probably will not be heard but it does not hurt to try question when i win i get 15 or 16 lp depends if i did good but when i lose i always always lose 19 how does this works?