learning how to control my impulses
Disabling the chat won't help you control your impulses, it' more like a punishment to yourself.
Let's say you have a dog that pulls strongly at its lead when you walk it, you won't fix that with removing the leash.
Let's say you want to quit doing heroin, it's way easier to use substitution than it is to just try to hide your needles.
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I stopped going, because after 3 sessions, said therapist did nothing to help me.
After 3 sessions ?! It's a joke ?
- Therapy isn't something that will magically fix your issues in 3 hours.
- Sometimes you'll need to see a few different therapists until you find one that better suits your needs.
- Try Cognitive behavioral therapy, try hypnosis, try other solutions but don't give up like that...
Do you also have a toxic personality outside league ? Are you often passive/aggressive ? jealous ? Do you often blame other people or other things instead of yourself ? Would you be that toxic if like your girlfriend was playing with you ? How does your friends/GF react to that behavior ? Are you like that dude ?
Do you even know why you act like that ?
Clearly disabling the chat doesn't work since you even try to put it back up when you're mad.
I seriously believe that toxic people aren't just toxic in league.
If you're only toxic online without being even passive/aggressive irl you should try to realize that you're talking to other people, if you're not able to be as toxic irl it makes you more a coward than anything, you're hiding behind your computer, try to see it like that.
** Some people genuinely have emotional problems and the sad consequence is that they have become marginalized in their own lives because of it. However, online they can be powerful. They can bully, berate and hector everyone in all the ways they can't do in real life**. It might be your case.
Do you even want to stop being toxic ? It seems like you're trying but you just give up as soon as possible.
Anyway good luck working on that.
