FULL TILT HELP (pantheon play)

I am very tilty. Check my match history. SO this is what happened. I Won liek 11 in a row was doing good. Some friends wanted to que together and they sucked, we lost 3 in a row. I was lik ok ima j solo q. I swear this is where bad luck/me being on tilt come together to make me feel liek shit During tilt i will j play other roles to take a break and will prob lose those games. Then i go back to my main and try hard all game. Literally bot/mid will towers before im level 6. Im like ok... i dont say anything just smash on my opponet and look for ult windows. I got a kill mid at level 6 and then went back top and took my tower. From there on i was trying to "carry" cuz im the only one capeable of killing anything on my team. I land a good ult, no one does shit, i get a few kills and die instead of an ace. This game felt unwinnable, but maby me being on tilt made me not do things i normally would have done. When i was on my win streak i was in a better mood BUT, the games all felt winnable. Like bot lane might not be doing great but they werent feeding and gave me time to come help. Also in these games my mid/junlger did well and helped me focus on top more.

ALSO haha dont hate on my pantheon with barrier. I know its low elo and i was SMASHING with it. Won like 14 games in a row using it. I use it for early all ins, escape from getting ganked after i have a lead in lane, and for ulting in team fights late game. Usually ill have GA/MAW for just an annoying amount of sustain. Not to mention my passive.

But ya if anyone has a routine, a certain strain of weed, some herbal tea, knows of a good massage therapist, a hook on valium, a good album to listen too, or anything else that may help me get through this tough time. THANKS