I am preparing to appeal my Perma-Ban
Hello, thanks for taking the time to read this! Please feel free to say your opinion as I will appreciate it.
My account was been permanently banned by a player-triggered review because of my behavior on August 7th, 2018. I have been playing since the tail-end of season 4. I was a positive player and teammate up until mid-season 8 and also I had reached max honor in season 7. I think I might be the only player to go from max honor to perma-ban. I was going through the hardest point in my life throughout season 8, and I handled terribly. I was a toxic person in my own house, at my work, and on the rift. I broke down mentally and physically. I wish that I could apologize to all of the teammates and enemies that I have been negative towards. I deeply regret what I did. My behavior was unacceptable and inexcusable. I will never be able to take back what I did.
I started my reform process on September 2018. I try to be the person that energizes the room when I walk into it instead being the person that energizes the room when I walk out. This is lifestyle for me. I am taking it day by day. I am not trying to be better than anyone else I am only trying to be better than the person I was yesterday. I started meditating every day, and now I do it when I wake up and when I go to bed. Meditating has helped me out so much I am struggling to put it into words. I live in the present and I don't cling on to the things that I used to. I also perform some sort of exercise at least 5 times a week.
I am preparing an appeal in which I will officially go the ticket center or I will email riot support but that will not happen until at least August 7, 2019. Below you will find the one game log that got me perma-banned. I wish could apologize to the teammates who had to put up with this. This log makes me feel disgusting but at the same time it motivates me to become a better person. I have this log saved on my desktop.
Game 1 In-Game Heraçles: ur so stupid Heraçles: fucking jax is farming scuttle whole time Heraçles: hey jax l;earn to counter gank yea? Heraçles: dont just keep farming the camp bro@' Heraçles: he spammed me careful rofl Heraçles: while farming scuttle Heraçles: thats wrong lol Heraçles: jg gap op Heraçles: aight 2 death jax Heraçles: be slaty that thier jung is btter than you idc Heraçles: afk Heraçles: fuck this jax Heraçles: stfu b Heraçles: bitch boy Heraçles: i was low hp Heraçles: forced xin flash Heraçles: and he takes it Heraçles: i get ganked 3 times Heraçles: jax flames me Heraçles: and takes scuttle Heraçles: dont mid me carrying or anything Heraçles: jg gap op Heraçles: first turret? Heraçles: you all get gold and im drawing attention ive been ganked 5 times Heraçles: and i have 4 kills Heraçles: thats carrying bud Heraçles: jax stop dieing Heraçles: aight jungler who gets out pressured mid then flames midlaner then steals scuttle while inting Heraçles: jungler splits top while they group top Heraçles: lol Heraçles: i mean bot* Heraçles: keep splitting jax Heraçles: thats helping Heraçles: you lol Heraçles: i Heraçles: KLOOK AT JAX Heraçles: THEYRE GROUPED MID Heraçles: AND HES BOT Heraçles: yeah except youve been sp[litting the whol;e game rofl Heraçles: says the jungler who falmes his mid laner for getting ganked at 2 mins in the game Heraçles: whiule farming scuttkle Heraçles: is that how you see it? Heraçles: keep flaming Heraçles: i stopped talking Heraçles: you keep flaming Heraçles: thats incorrect Heraçles: my bad for flame but you actually tried to tilt me dont flame your mid laner jungler Heraçles: asks for counter gank replies with oh no games not centered around yas thats ridic
I was being disrespectful and selfish and my team deserved better from me.