I have developed a mental problem

xchriso·5/19/2018, 1:10:17 AM·1 votes·1,438 views

When I enter a game now on my new main I just like dying. It feels good, maybe it's because I get a short break from the game or idk. I don't run it down mid but I take a fight I know I am going to lose and then die. I don't do it because I'm mad at my teammates, I just enjoy it. It's really weird, I find it more fun than going 20-0. I don't know what I should do. Maybe it's because I can't take the game seriously anymore? It just feels satisfying. lol

I wonder why people are just downvoting this, I am 100% serious. Help me please instead of downvoting?

7 Comments

CubanThund3r5/19/2018, 5:02:37 AM2 votes

hey man I'm honestly with you too lmao recently i've just been dying kind of on purpose.. and I've gotten multiple people punished who decide to flame me. honestly it's just funny to know that your team mates are getting punished for actually wanting to win and verbally harassing you for not doing good

fatherdarius5/20/2018, 2:30:18 AM2 votes

Devil's advocate:

Maybe you just like the challenge of playing from behind? You're so skilled that repeatedly going 20-0 in game has become boring. You'd rather let the enemy marksman get 10-15 kills up on you, and THEN play, because at least you find that challenging.

It's like dueling someone left-handed when you're right hand dominant: It's the only way you can be satisified.

https://i.imgur.com/H9zBMl1.gif

Gudens Pappa5/19/2018, 1:12:03 AM1 votes

You sound like every single team mate I've ever had

Eternal Torment5/19/2018, 3:06:25 AM1 votes

You actually answered your own question. You have reached the stage where you can not even take the game serious enough to not ruin it for others. It's a very common psychological thing. The victim who used to get bullied bullies others because he was exposed to it for so long and in such extremes that he started to be convinced that it is a good thing to do.

and from what you say, I believe that you have this similar case ongoing with lol. You were trolled, flamed and overall just joy killed so many times, and I guess those people were never/nearly never punished so that you subconsciously or consciously believe being just like them is the best thing to do to fit in and enjoy this game. A community so poisonous that it teaches actual joy in mental intrusion and sadism.

I utmost sincerely advise a visit at a professional psychological examinator. I've been where you are before, believe me, you either get a very firm hold of yourself or you are gonna need therapeutic help if you cannot do it on your own.

afmghost5/20/2018, 3:26:01 AM1 votes

Maybd you're the next Tyler1 ripoff.

Christ, not another one.