just having a not pleasant time right now theres a lot of stuff bothering me and tbh i guess i just wanted to say something and i was already here. just about every weekend around this time i always feel like absolute crap idk maybe i need a new routine or something
I grew up with depression and it took me 22 (almost 23) years to even get stable enough to socialize normally with people.
First off, you HAVE to figure out what's bugging you or what your triggers are, at the very least, before you can really get any better. Night? Day? A certain person? Certain activities? Certain places? You say that it happens around this time every weekend and that leads me to believe something happened a while ago repeatedly on the weekends that scarred your mind to the point of just automatically feeling like shit on weekends. It happens to more people than you think. I also read a comment of your's here saying that your room is a mess. That, alone, is enough to drive some people into some really dark places.
Also, in my own personal experience, "not thinking about it" is about the worst possible thing you can do. You'll still get wet if it's raining even if you don't think about it. It's better, sometimes, to do some thinking on it. I might warn you that you can be "alone" doing this, but if something snaps, you'll want someone at least in the same house for you to go to, or to stop you from doing anything drastic. So I would advise that you be alone in a different room, but not alone in your whole house.
On the other hand, trying too hard to figure something of this nature out can be just as, if not more damaging than the whole reason itself. It's a fine balance, and I would advise you to start slowly with it. For me, "slowly" was 2 hours per week in therapy and just trying to keep myself busy otherwise.
Getting control of depression if not an overnight thing. Sometimes, it can take a couple of months. Sometimes, a few years. It personally took me 7 years of therapy, 4 stays in mental hospitals, 6 different therapists, and 4 different psychiatrists just to get to where I am.
That being said, it really sucks to hear of someone else going through similar problems of mine. I wish you the best of luck, and do keep your head up. (Keeping your head up can actually help your mood. Ironic.)
tl;dr There isn't a tl;dr. You pretty much have to read this to understand it fully.
Doing something to break out of routine always helps, but don't expect a magical cure or anything. But any amount of time you can get yourself feeling better is worthwhile. I actually used to clean when I was down. Partially because the depression was taking away my drive to keep my place as clean as I usually would, but also getting all that clutter cleaned up gave me a feeling of accomplishment that would also last for a bit afterwards (every time I'd look around the room and see it was back to being clean and organized, I'd feel a bit better).
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Yes you do. Leaving chemical imbalances out of it, depression is exacerbated by feeling hopeless and/or helpless.
Changing your habits generally helps break the severity of depression. Hope that helps.
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While I do not live with depression, most of my close family do. Some things that they have said help them include: Going for walks - the physical benefits to this are one thing, but a change of scene and fresh air can do wonders Focussing on achieving something - My mum specifically says that if she can finish the day and can say that she has spent it well, the next day becomes much easier.
And most importantly, try to surround yourself with people you can talk to. Your family and friends can support you when you need supporting. For those times you forget how awesome you are, they will remind you.
If you have not done so yet, seek medical advice. This is obviously easier In the UK, as it is free on the NHS, but there has to be somewhere you can go. Learning more about your illness from reputable, medical sources are important. You need to know where you stand.
Of course, if you know all of this already then hearing it again doesn't help. I hope I was at least of some assistance.
thanks to everyone that gave some feedback ive actually been working on making some life/routine changes and we will see who that helps in the long run :)
Go watch some comedy shows, or read a book. Unless your internet/tv dies or you can't read, whatever's troubling you will at least disappear for the time being.
I would have to say listen to music that makes you dance or jam too.
