Why?

Why is this game so unfun to play now? I used to have fun playing. Now it just feels inadequate, unbalanced, and extremely stale, winning or losing, both leave a bad taste in my mouth. Hextech Crafting leaves a bad taste as well. I'm honestly considering just trolling and being toxic to see how many times I get banned before I move onto something else. It sucks because I don't find Dota/HotS/Smite good enough to get me hooked into it. I don't know, I used to be able to do very well, now i'm just piss poor due to my recent matchups and the fact that nobody cares to win anymore its always, "its just normals" or "its just aram". But I have to ask myself, why are you playing Normals if you don't care to win, why must you ruin it for those who do want to win, but don't want to play Ranked because it's just not fun there? Everything is just toxic this, kys that, report this guy, troll. I just don't care anymore. Im so triggered