My struggles In league PS: Just wrote this for releasing my anger

When ever I'm in a game people can yell and say cuss at me, when I'm feeding when its part of the game, how do you get fed by killing people DUR. Yes I know I am a horrible person for cussing past and spamming. Still am because Riot wont change me unless everyone changes too. So let me tell you my first chat ban when I spammed a lot, second got banned for saying a lot of bad shits. I won't say I'm nice or good because in truth no one is good or bad. I still don't get life why do you get mad for a game BECAUSE I LIKE TO FUCKIN WIN THERE IS YOU SHITTEN ANSWER FOR EVERYONE BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE IRL RULES AND I WANT TO DO SHIT. PS: Just wrote this for my anger, it doesn't need to make sense