I am / was a toxic buttface and have questions.

So iv been playing this game since season 3 always stuck in silver on this account or another always thinking i belong in gold+ and just flame my team when they make what i think to be dumb mistakes.

well recently i had a few chat restrictions on one of my accounts and this one got a 2 week ban for intentional inting in a normal game " i was with friends but one set me off =-= i was an idiot" well i started getting coached from a master player and he has done wonders for me on my attitude and game play im gold on all my accounts.

I know where my faults are im very competitive and also very defensive/ willing to fight back "confrontational" in irl and in game haha. im working on this everyday but its still hard for me from time to time iv called people losers no skill uninstall ect, I understand this is unacceptable and have just been muteing all in my ranked games it has really helped.

My question is even if iv had a 2 week suspension if i get my honor back up do i still get gold rewards at the end of the season? honestly if no i get it i was a dumbass and am not expecting anything im just simple curious.

Also listening to calming music has really helped my attitude while playing league MIDBEAST'S challenger vibes 2.0 playlist is actually really soothing while playing.

IF I HAVE EVER MADE YOU FEEL LIKE GARBAGE IM SORRY AND IM TRYING.