I got banned...

So today is a pretty low day for me. I got banned for 2 weeks for flaming in the chat. I was saying all kinds of nasty things, typing KYS and calling people every swear word under the sun.

Recently I've been going through a tough time, my Nan has been suffering cancer, I live miles away from my family, I spend a lot of time alone and work really bothers me. As if this wasn't enough, I am trying to deal with a condition called tinnitus which creates a constant high pitched ringing in my left ear. It really drives me mad sometimes and theres nothing that can be done about it, it's permanent. I'm also moving to South Korea next month to start a new job.

All this stress and pressure has turned me into a miserable person, I climbed to silver 1 through hard work and then, from some kind of awful luck I dropped rank after rank, all the way down to silver 4 2LP. It seemed like nothing I did could grant a win. Because of this I have been so toxic and I hate it, I really hate it. And seeing this happen has made me feel so bad but I beg you, please give me back my account.

I play League of Legends as a coping mechanism, I need this game sometimes, I feel like maybe a lot of us do. I will never chat in game again, I wouldn't even risk it anymore. If there was a way for you guys at riot to stop me talking in any chat permanently then please, do so. iv'e spent 5 years playing and loving this game, invested over £600 into it. I am so deeply upset by how I have behaved, and I'm so sorry for everything I have said, this is NOT who I am.

So sorry for everything,

Systemagic x