Well I guess that's it, no more LoL for me. I feel like ultimate crap right now, but I guess its about time I stopped playing. I loved this game a lot, it was an escape from all the crappy stuff, and being a part of it was the best to feel like I was actually good at doing something when playing. Unfortunately I wasn't the best player to play with though, I tried to be the best, every single match doing what I can win. But I guess it got to me, instead of becoming the "best" I just ended up becoming the worst. Goodbye league it was 4-5 great years, but I guess I'm done playing this game and running away from all the things I have to deal with.
Don't be like me or you'll end up making crap like this.