Unlucky colorblind animal:^)

yolo Note: If u started to read it - please read it well Hello lads! You're my last hope probably, because I'm so lost. Probably someone can remember me, I wrote a post here may be ~3 month ago, was asking for help here (Just couldn't understand why I got banned for 3'rd party programms, tried to prove innocence (What for?!)). So I gonna try to do it again because I really need it right now and right here. About me : My name is Xenia, I'm 19 years old, live in Russia. Like a 2 years ago I realised that I have an almost uncurable disease (Cancer for sure, just chance to get success is very low, as all of you probably know). So I tried to live like others: went to University (No one knew about my problem there), tried to find the job (got unlucky, so unexpected oh!). With times I got really deep depression : I couldn't share my feelings with others, just literally had no friends there=/ Dropped the university, and tried to freelance at home (I'm good at design, tried to learn web-design / wanted to translate) etc … weeeeelll.. As you can see – it was only tries. I was playing Legaue of Legends, it was like a good hobby:) I'm an old player (Since season 2 may be) But when I just literally gave up, said "FK YOU" to my life, I've started playing 15 or more hours EVERY day (Yes, EVERYDAY, more than 1 year I was playing League of Legends every fing day) My mom was forcing me to do something like job/uni because that's really a pain to see how your child is just dying at your eyes and you can't do something, he's just giving up, I can understand her. Well, I decided to become a pro league player, and I really got so inspired of this idea. I was watching streams / videos/ added a lot of challengers , was talking to them/spectated a lot, but when I had those “depression waves” I was tilting and losing a lot of games like 20 games lose streak was OK for me:) When Tahm Kench was realized I just realized as well that I can't see his shield at all but when it's on dark background it was OK (Red TK'S skin was perfect for it). Well I decided to main TK (Had no IP to buy yet) because really got inloved in such a free-elo with funny mechanics and cool emote-spam animations :3 (Sorry for TK haters, I remember you!) My friend wrote on reddit with the same problem and someone just gave an advice to download MK Jogo (Skin preview, because RP purchasing is unavailable in my country) He said “Just turn off the timers to avoid getting advantage (Just insta-ban probably) and when you will get a warning message - just delete this soft. I started playing with MK Jogo, just was replacing skins from time to time on my mains like Diana, Katarina while getting IP for TK but then just got permabanned without any warnings on my mail. Ye, all of my life, because atm League was like THE REAL LIFE for me (Almost full unlucked account, just imagine : 4+ years spent). I got fked up ultra hard, like I got destroyed. I wrote around 15+ tickets from my smurfs (Low level without champ pool, just was planning to level it someday) and just was reading random CTRL + V answers from Riot support team. Obviously I violated Terms of use, but I think that's a bit unfair when they couldn't fix their colorblind mode for 3 patches and a lot of people found the help in 3'rd party soft. I really have no idea what to do lads, could you give me an advice please? May be makes sence to make a YT video to Riot games and they will pay more attention to my situation? Yours Moonmast @ EUW (Yes, probably you expecting sick elo from 15h/day player but sorry, I'm still unskilled, just felt myskill raising in last days played)

1. P.S Sorry if my grammar is bad, just english is not my native language^_^