I didn't want to mute them because I needed communication, and I don't know if they can HEAR me if I mute them, If I knew that you can mute them and they can all hear me, I would've muted so fast, but I didn't know, I wanted her to hold my lane top and her response is "Nah I'd rather lose, GG"
after I gank bottom and get two kills/tower. So olaf takes two towers because she says that, and as she's coming up there it's already too late, tower is destroyed then she dies. So she says/does all that even though after I told her that "I'm not trying to purposely lose the game, I just needed you to hold my lane for a bit." But nope it was all "GG, I'd rather lose" Then as the game goes further I start to get toxic towards her because I hate how she dealt with the situation when she wouldn't hold my lane, because that attitude lost us the game, so yes I was mad and I got toxic.
Do you see though? it's my fault for slipping but I just felt so angry at that point, usually I don't but it sucks that I couldn't get a game ban for like 12 days or something, the only thing I got was a chat ban for 10 games and that was a long time ago. I don't know just the things she said just got me angry. I know there is no next-time but if I knew there was a next-time I would've just muted the person and said what needed to be done and be done with it, if they chose to talk in game and cry about something I wouldn't know and just think that's how they do things and I'd be like "Gank me, Don't go in alone, or Stay grouped" and if they failed all of that i'd just say the same thing or "Don't gank me, Please stop going in alone, or Stay grouped next time"
I really don't want a permanent ban, I don't want to create a new account, If you can give me like a month ban I'd live with it, or 3 month ban! I still wanna play but I also still wanna live with this regret, because it'll help me in the future to watch what I type and never be toxic again. I never give up my games but today just wasn't a good day for me, I'm sorry for all the things I said. It was my fault for thinking I can be this toxic, and rude to my teammates but they didn't deserve it, they probably felt just as frustrated. I'll take anything, I just don't want a permanent ban.