Honorable icons

I've had my account for many years now and am usually not a player that is unsportsmanlike (used to have the honorable opponent ribbon), although I think everyone goes through some rough stuff and takes it out on other people ; a bad habit of being human is making mistakes. About like a month ago I got a ban cause in the same week I intentionally fed in two games cause I was having a really rough time during this period with some personal stuff and my teammates were flaming me pretty hard. I hadn't ever inted before, but I see it so often I was like eh it's just a normals game so it's whatever. While I learned my lesson for sure and deserved what I got for doing that it kinda sucks that my honors I had accumulated over all these years reset and I couldn't get any of the other honor icons. So the lesson is, even if you're having a bad time don't be toxic and ruin other's games cause it 100% will never pan out for you or make you feel better.