Need help, really bad at the game, and i've played for too long not to be.

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Been playing for quite a long time and it would seem i've learned absolutely nothing. As far as i can see though i feel im best at learning from direct experience in-game. I know all the basics etc. Watched hundreds of vids over the years, still in bronze. Is it truly me being shit? I've accepted i'm shit several years ago when i got stuck in bronze for more than a month. I make lots of mistakes and try my best to correct it and learn from it every time. It's all split second decision making that can always be improved. But how do you learn to be better when you're someone like me and stuck trying to carry your self, and other people who are as bad as you or even worse? They can't be trusted to follow up and to do amazing things with you that could potentially win a game. Especially in solo queue where it's just so much harder to predict shot calls and when to go in. You can't win every game. Is it just my luck? idk but i hope it isn't. I've had some brief look-overs by some diamonds and a challenger or 2. They have on different degree's all agreed i have potential, but lack in communication won't get me very far. I have some amazing farming skills some tactics that work for me. But again, without a reliable team i can only get so far. I've had maybe 2 or 3 people suggest maybe i just need a duo partner. Did they mean i just needed a boost? I just want to get to high gold so i never have to look back and worry so much again about being dragged down. The difference in game play is almost dramatically different and bronze for me is just too slow.

In the end, i need help. I have curse. I have a main in all roles. i good variety if needed.

If i had to describe my gameplay, i'd say i'm a build up on assassin/tank hybrid with good adc skills. Im generally bad at mages though so never expect me to mid much unless i'm fucking around or trying something new.

I'm reeeeaaaaaalllly bad at math. So i mostly read a lot of pro suggested guides on building champs. I'm broke buying a new champ every month and i don't have many runes or rune pages. I don't know how to properly build a rune page.. Masteries are a personal preference and you suggesting things would be nice but i'll need a good reasonable explanation for changing it. I need explanations for a lot of things if you want to change me and the way i play the game. We're all different.

I'm looking for someone dedicated to helping me get better. I wouldn't be here making an insane long forum post asking for help if i didn't mean it. I will NOT hesitate to unadd someone who mutters the phrase: "Well then i guess that's why you're bronze." That's just a plain aggressive, dickish move man. I will also unadd anybody who probably didn't read this post as well. I don't need you asking r%%%%%ed questions when it's all right here. It shows you don't pay attention or you're too impatient to have a decent convo with.

I don't like 1v1ing anybody so pls don't ask.

Champs i like to play from best to last: Adc- Jhin, Luc, Siv, Quinn, Varus, Ez, Kindred Supp- Nami, Thresh, Sona, Braum, Tahm, Lux, Naut, Janna, Morg, Bard Mid- Kass, Talon, Ahri, Sol, Vel, Lux, Malz, TF, Viktor, Karth, Galio Jung- Kah, Hec, Noct, Xin, Shyv, Yi, Reng, Rek, Vi, Skarner, Top- Renekton, Aatrox, Garen, Dar, Riv, Jayce, Trynd, Wu, Illaoi, Vlad

Oh, and one last detail.. I am in fact a girl.

I won't lie this time to make you feel more comfortable that my voice just sounds just girly. Haha.. >.>