I can't stop myself from raging at teammates
I don't even care if we lose. I am frustrated that I cannot leave the game without penalties. I've tried it before, it goes up to 20 minutes low priority queue for matchmaking and then I'm pretty sure the next step is being temp banned (haven't gone that far).
I am frustrated because I see things that shouldn't be remotely possible. Dying to Nasus 1v1 at lvl 2. Dying to Akali pre-6 as Lux, Zed, Xerath, etc. Thresh support without runes so he gets 3 shot at level 2. The ADC I'm supported is standing still and autoing minions, nami gets 4 bubbles off in a row before lvl 3 and they die. I just have to say something edgy. But the thing is, I'm not wrong with what I say. They die again in the same stupid manner again and again.At that point I used to just leave the game. Now I'm forced to bite my tongue because of chat restrictions, that makes me rage even more.
I'm not a mean person in real life. My insults in-game are not of a personal or vulgar nature, more of a "you're bad" line of insult. But to be honest this is the worst insult you can throw because everyone has a superiority complex (or should I say, insecure) so they instantly deflect it and start attacking me, even though they are bad. Its just that its so fking true that it must be false, otherwise they have to accept shame and responsibility (something most ppl this day and age hate to do).
If I don't say anything and we lose, I just feel deflated. Its like life is out of my control and unfortunately, life is sucking real hard. I end up leaning back in my chair, stretch out my arms and feebly alt-f4 out of the game once the defeat sign shows.
- anna Grande even do she nerfed