Am I holding myself to too high of a standard of playing?
I've been playing ever since August of this year, and have enjoyed myself a lot on the game; I've even put down $50 to buy some stuff, and I've very happy with my skins, champions, and runes... but what good are they with my current skill?
The past two weeks after being around the early level 20s range, I've noticed that my performance has become increasingly bad. Before, I could harass out of my ass and dominate a lane, or land some sexy Morgana snares and Thresh hooks very easily, but lately that has stopped happening. I've been getting stomped in lane and having almost zero presence in team fights. I've noticed I have stopped improving at the game, and may even be getting worse.
Five games in a row, I've played Orianna, and gotten demolished by champions such as Yorick, Syndra, Akali, Katarina and Karma. Each game, at least one team member got angry at me, called me useless, and that I shouldn't be losing the lane to these other champions because Orianna should be superior to them. I've also played a game against Annie as Akali, and I lost the laning phase, where my teammates began to yell at me and say I shouldn't be losing to a champion like Annie while playing Akali.
Multiple things have happened and been said lately, and my loss rate has been higher than ever. The fact that I am getting frustrated with the game rather than enjoying it is probably wrong, but I can't help but worry how pathetic I will be at level 30. I admire players like Keyori, Uberdanger, and many streamers because they seem to be able to have a lot of fun while playing many champions to a high standard, even with unconventional builds.
I've also been told that the right mindset is not to blame others, but instead be able to carry. Rarely do I blame my team, but I can never find myself carrying a game. Most wins I've had are due to a teammate carrying, or making some sort of sick comeback.
Is my mindset wrong, and am I holding myself to too high of a standard? I understand I've only been playing for a couple of months, but I take my video games seriously and push myself to be a skilled player in many games. I may be expecting myself to advance in skill too quickly. I also can't blame any of my teammates; I notice my bad mistakes and they scarcely are a factor in it. Any advice is appreciated, because I really would like to get back to enjoying the game as I did before I started having long losing streaks.