Jumping into PVP
Before I start, I realize that there have been other players that have posted discussions about this, but I just wanted to put one out there myself. And that is: phobia of PVP, and lack of experience in it. This will be a bit lengthy.
So I've recently just come back to League after about a year or two of absence. The thing is I'm level 22 now (I've put on a level since coming back literally just a couple of weeks ago) and I've only done PVP twice, and that was before I left. Yes, only twice. I will admit that it is slightly sad. It's rather embarrassing to say I've only played against A.I. I enjoy bots, but I'd like to try and enjoy the player.vs.player aspect as well. After all, that's the premise of the game.
The reason for this is because of this crippling anxiety and fear I have of PVP. Don't get me wrong, I love League and have had fun with it. But I'm not exactly a confident guy when it comes to player to player. There's just this crazy pressure I feel that just keeps me away from it. I also don't want to be a hindrance/handicap to the team, especially because I don't have the experience I should have at my level.
Naturally when I came back, I jumped into bots to practice and get familiar with the game again and have tried to expand my comfort zones with various champs like Sona and Riven, having always played assassins. I know that players are completely different from bots and that in order to get better, I need to actually play against players. But to do that, I need to overcome my little phobia. I freeze up just from hovering over the solo button and imagining the match itself, not to mention all of the other crap.
Is there any advice I can use to get over my anxiety of PVP and turn it into a less stressful experience? Someone suggested I do a Leeroy Jenkins and just jump into it ._. I've heard from someone else that I shouldn't be afraid of losing as it can be liberating so I shouldn't have a fear of that either and that playing with friends help...except I don't have any XD For the record, I don't plan on doing any ranked for a LONG time down the road. Just planning on sticking to normal and getting used to that.
I'd appreciate any input you guys have. And for the record, I am serious, not posting this as a joke. Little-to-no experience and full of anxiety.
-Shun