I feel like my inability to climb the ladder is completely out of my control.
I can focus on myself and do the 'right' thing in a game, but I just cannot get the interaction with my teammates right. I can't. My gameplay and how it connects to my teammates is something that I cannot improve and I don't know why.
If I try to be a shot caller, no one listens. Or they don't do their part in the objective. If I don't try to lead, no one else does and they just sit there and slowly and painfully lose the game.
If I try to gank and share my advantage, they don't follow up. Or they totally whiff when I try to let them have the kills. I don't even want the kills. I just want to win. That's all. I can function in the game without kills and solely on farm.
I'm not saying I am perfect. I'm not saying that it's not partially my fault that I lose. I just don't understand what I am supposed to do when it is blatantly someone else's fault.
People say to help your teammates, but it is impossible. They never listen. They argue. And if they are the type of player to be feeding in the first place, they aren't going to be able to accept my help.
I'm only one person and I am just so sick of playing shitty uphill battle games where it feels like I am the only one trying. I don't even mind losing. I mind that there are people who are awful teammates that are preventing me from improving. I don't care how good you are. A 4v5 is difficult to manage. Even if both teams have 5 players and one player is just so awful.
Sorry I am rambling, but I feel so stuck and its like no amount of attitude adjustment or focus on improvement is helping me get better or climb. I just feel stuck in gold 5 grinding on these games where my teammates just plain suck and it is so hard to manage.
I honestly would rather have a teammate that plays well and is a complete asshole than a nice guy who is in the wrong elo. Shits messed up.