Before I give up, I'll ask for help
This is the last time I'm going to ask for help. I've lost all ability of playing league. I'm too toxic for no reason, my teams never work together so they split apart almost instantly, and I never use my brain in matches. I've played with challenger tier players that people I know play with and I embarrassed myself so much I cried. I don't know what to do. I just installed LoLReplay again, but I have a feeling looking at 45 minutes of failure isn't going to help me whatsoever.
Most of the time I use my entire kit and I land my abilities perfectly, and it just isn't effective enough. I don't know if it's not enough gold, or I'm doing them in the wrong order, or what, but it just doesn't work. I don't know what items to build when, and I don't have a main role. This game isn't even fun anymore, but I play it anyways because I hate my life and have literally nothing else to do other than go to college classes. I heard that TSM, my favorite team, had 3 openings since people are retiring and that made me feel slightly happy again because I thought that in some alternate universe it could be me, considering I mod theoddone's stream, I know a lot of their tactics, but ultimately I know that it just doesn't translate to my fingers. I never do well, and when I do well, I roam and try to 1v1 everyone without knowing how strong they are, or just go back to farming. I can't learn how tto press an advantage, or even realize when I have an advantage. I won 215 LP in a day, and now I'm back to a sub-30% winrate....
I really don't know what to do anymore, can someone help me? :(