Considering the option of uninstalling
Good afternoon and happy holidays!
Lately I've been seriously considering uninstalling League, regardless of the amount of money I've put into it; skins, champs, etc.
I joined League in the mid of Season 3. Since then, about mid Season 4, I've been having a lot less fun in terms of enjoying the game. Up until the midpoint of Season 4 I honestly had the most fun (in any game I've ever played), but as soon as I entered ranked (I played quite a bit of games in S3 - Bronze 4) and set a goal for getting Silver+ the fun of the game starting going downhill. Yes I did meet my goal of making Silver, but after rising quickly to Silver 4 -> Silver 3, I became a toxic player. The road of trying to hit Gold before S4 ended in me only reaching Silver 2 promotion series to get into Silver 1 which I had lost because 2 out of the 3 games had AFK'ers (I aint even mad). Around that month during the road to Gold I received a lot of chat bans (I never had one prior to that, and I never AFK'd unless it was an emergency or I had legitimate connection issues). Around the point where I got banned, I decided to clean up my act and improve on becoming a better team player, but it just hasn't seemed to work. The day I logged in after becoming unbanned I was determined not to talk smack and focus on improving. All I wanted to do was practice, but since the day of coming back practice seemed impossible. In normals matchmaking is wack, and it's really really really hard to win with 4 unranked players going against other high Silvers and low Golds (at least in my experience). In ranked, every game I get toxic and unskilled players (not complaining). In champ select, its not surprising for someone to instalock a role when that role has already been taken, and it's frustrating not being able to dodge. If I jungle, every lane expects you to help them (and a jungler should help his/her team), but when they do badly of course the jungler is to blame, even when they walk into a bush 1 v 3 which you pinged them not to do, or when they cough up first blood and continue to push the lane with no summoners and die to a gank. Yes I do want to be everywhere and helping everywhere, but that is just not possible unless there's good in exp and jungle farm being lost. I'd say 7 or 8 out of 10 games that I play I get very unskilled bot laners, especially ADCs, and the 2 or 3 of 10 games that I don't get crappy bot laners, I usually win. Even when I support and set up kills for them they still find a way to die or not pick up kills and continue to rage throughout the entire game. Again I am not complaining, but I'm just trying to express what I go through 70~80% of the time and its become really hard to improve by getting toxic/unskilled teammates all the time.
The only time I really enjoy the game is when I am with my group. I do not have to worry about bad games, toxic behavior, or even doing bad myself. Sadly, this is not everyday gameplay, we group merely 2 times a week now as compared to 5/6 during the summer.
No I am not the best player, but all I want to do is improve and most importantly have fun. In the 2 seasons I've played I've never left a game, and just out of these past 2 weeks I'd say I've left a good 10. Recently I've AFK'd about 3 or 4 in a row. Just now I threw my hands up in defeat playing Top because every time I ulted with Shen, the person would just run away (wasting my ult) then go back in indecisively and die. I had been doing good that game, but when 2 lanes/jungle each all have 7 (total of 21+ deaths) within 22 mins I usually see no hope. Yes I've come back before, or won 3v5/4v5's, but that is extremely rare. The ignore all and the mute button has been working a bit to be honest, but when I see people dying a lot and just spamming pings (especially on purpose) I usually just accept defeat.
All in all, I am not having as much fun as I used to and I no longer see League as something productive in terms of time and having fun. All I've been wanting to do is practice and improve, but that is only becoming harder because of the crappy/unskilled community (at least in Silver). My question is, should I uninstall and move onward in doing something productive? If I should stay, what should I do? Main ADC (seems to be the skill gap in Silver) and no longer worry about average 0-14 bot lanes? Once again, I know I am not the best but I do know i try my best and I definitely don't go 0-7 or 0-10 early, I'm just really tired of having unskilled teammates/toxic ones in champ select every queue and there's nothing to be really done about that, is there?? I want to be a less toxic player (even though I havent been expressing it in chat lately) and have fun again. Once again, I want to stress that I am not trying to complain or anything, I just want some advice on what I should do; should you think I should stay and not uninstall League
Any tips, constructive criticism, etc. would be wonderful!
#NotMadJustWantToImproveAndBeLessToxicAndHaveFun
Happy Holidays