Not sure where to go from here..
So I was in Bronze 1 (no this is not an ELO Hell thread, I don't believe in it even though I'm in "elo hell"), and I was a game away from promotion. And then I've just been on the worst losing streak of my life. The problem with that is, is that it doesn't feel like I should've gotten demoted in some areas. I'll be the first to admit I'm far from a perfect player. Some games are my fault. I recently played a game on zed (my main), where all lanes won hard but I just got crushed by a Mord. My fault and we lost. I don't have a problem admitting that and I played like crap. That was just one game in the losing streak, and majority of these games I felt like I played pretty well. Just this last game I played I was Thresh and we absolutely destroyed our lane. Like up almost 5/0 and 30 cs. And it didn't matter since top fed Voli to the point he was 13/0, and mid fed as well. And I got demoted for that. This has happened literately 4 different times in this streak. I win my lane, try and gank when I can (though as I play support a lot I can't exactly help top lane if he's feeding hard, and leave my ADC to get gang banged), but every other lane loses hard. And now I'm back in bronze 2 where I started this season. I've only got to level 30 since February, and compared to the player I was when I first entered bronze I am so much better. I can actually farm worth a damn, my team fights are no longer atrocious, and I have some semblance of objective control. All this I could hardly do when I first entered Bronze 2, and I deserved it when I did my promos. It's just incredibly frustrating to know that I have improved so much since I first started playing this game and entered that league, and yet I'm still in the same league. And I can't crack bronze 1 to save my life.
Does anyone else feel this way or have some advice? I just find ranked sometimes just to be a grind, and I almost don't find the black and white you either win and you get rewarded, or lose and you're punished in a system all that fun. I have fun knowing that I do well, or I'm doing the best I can to help my team and if we lose despite my best efforts, I'm fine with that. I care way more about how I played, and punishing me for a Yasuo who went 1/7 in the first 20 minutes against an Ahri just isn't fun to me. And again it goes back to my point of how I just feel it's a grind sometimes. I find normals way more fun. Hell, my Normals MMR is mid silver. I'm constantly matched up with S2 and S3 players, and I usually do well. Does anyone else feel this way? Or does it seem I'm just bitter after a continuing losing streak that cost me silver promotions that while I didn't play my best and 100% carry, I played very well in most of them and still lost.