Need Help with Improving Mindset
I go on losing streaks, I move from champion to champion after losing too often as one, I get upset after 1-2 losses and, if it's a bad day, imagine myself using a cane or some other implement to cripple or maim anyone I don't know who may irritate or set me off next (Not that I actually do that, I can at least rein in those extremes). I then rant on forums about what I'm doing wrong, what I need work on, why it's my fault I couldn't save the win, etc. If there are little things or bigger picture ideas that I need to work into habit, then I'm in no mood right now to implement them. I don't want to grind bots, I don't want to take notes on long streams (especially not now), and as much of a douche as I must sound like now I just want Gold for the Victorious skin so I can feel like I accomplished something. Every loss puts me behind, every game of the gold disparity being too far apart for me to do anything anymore or the public places I use internet in shorting out ping-wise keeps me away from that (And speaking on that subject, lag happens at such an unreliable frequency that games I enter into with pretty good latency have a chance of becoming unplayable. Already ditched a game on that basis, currently have three more low-priority games to complete. And no: 1) I really don't want to effectively pay $60+ a month for a free game; 2) I'm of the opinion that my mindset and mechanics take precedence in importance over the internet here).
BONUS: Things I don't do - Flame in game, since blaming people does nothing for my win rate. Troll in competitive games. Actively take out anger on anything other than a non-essential inanimate object, or myself in a non-suicidal or mass-public manner.