Plat 2 Mid/Adc Looking for team (prepare for a long read)

If you wanna skip all the "About me" stuff just start reading from #4

1----- OK, this is going to maybe be a lengthy read, i havent written it yet at this point, so im not sure, but i have this feeling...y'know. When i first started this game it was with the single purpose of "going pro", the dream. I put in a staggering amount of effort, and ill paraphrase this whole story for you so we can just get to the point as fast as possible with me explaining as much about me as i can. I've written pages long about what ive learned since season 3, and my dedication was/is genuine, but in all that time i have never accomplished anything solid.

2----- I joined 3 teams, and then created 2, i only participated in 2 small tourneys, and the teams always fell apart, i was silver-gold around those times, and each team taught me so much about the game that i couldnt learn on my own, weather it was communication, what not to do, or just how to play better. But once again i find that i want to participate competitively in this game, accomplish something while im climbing, im looking for a team that wants to be competitive, but also wants to grow. The problem with established teams is that its hard to join and not get kicked, because people dont like you and have become friends. the problem with new teams is that thye break apart to fast when they realize they didnt form with lcs members off the bat, people are not willing to put in the time to improve, and the people who start putting in the time get lost in pleasantries and friendships and lose focus on what the end goal was.

3----- After my second created team fell apart i was done with teams for a while, i said i wouldnt join another one untill i was near Diamond III, i took the entire season (S4) and got to Diamond V, i knew that S5 would be my time, all i had to do was climb, of course getting out of D5 became a herculean task and whenever i got close i tilted, i found a duo partner, someone who understood my struggle, and had a good idea on how to critique players, we shared the same long term goal, and i felt like this was the opportunity i was waiting for, slowly i was letting losses bother me less, and winning games more often, i was climbing again, and focused. correcting mistakes, and then as if to spite me, karma comes knocking. For previous actions, i was permanently banned for "toxicity". You see when you have a dream so strong that it consumes you and all of your time you become extremely passionate, losing is not an option and when it happens, you cant help but feel pissed, i admittedly called other people bad/trash, didnt feel like wasting time in games that were lost already (in my mind), and got extremely upset at trolls, i never went far, i think the worst thing i ever said to another player was that "they were garbage" common trash talk but, as you can see, bannable trashtalk if repeated enough times, i could make excuses, but like i said, paraphrasing.

4-----I lost so much, i lost 200k ip, i lost every champion in the game, i lost over 200 skins, i lost my name and identity on league, i lost my profiles 7000+ ranked game history. and in its place, i gained clarity, peace of mind, and understanding. I restarted and made a climb to plat 2 promos in reasonable time. but got stuck here for far to long.

5----- Im looking to make another large improvement in my play, and im looking to meet another bunch of great individuals that have aspirations, people who look at this game and think they can accomplish something, play tournaments and win, people who arent ready to give up even through loss after loss, I tried looking for these people, i tried building them myself, but no one wanted it as much as me, constant breaks, and loss of focus, skipping practices, taking vacations, theres a big difference between wanting to play competitive and "thinking" you want to play competitively.

6----- Im looking for people who want to work as a team, we all have flaws, some of us are negative in the face of defeat, we cant all be positive, i completely understand, people get downed, people drudge through the mud, but as long as you bounce back up, its ok, as long as your willing to learn, its ok, as long as you admit when your wrong, its ok, If your determined then i think that you've got it 50% right. Ive been through quite a few teams, and ive seen quite a few personalities, Leaders who think they cant be wrong, Players who think they are better than the team and would rather join another, Players who think once their on the team they no longer have to improve, i would rather not deal with them.

7----- I still intend to play solo q and climb the ladder, I would need a schedule of play times and how many hours, because my goal for this season is still at least D1 - Master, if you are serious, and dont have a schedule, i could help you make one (if your interested in that)

8----- I think that i have given enough information in general about myself, if you are interested or want to know more, message me, as long as your not a condescending know it all, with no respect for the opinion of others im sure we can have a good conversation about the future.

---I am a mid lane main, i play ADC as a secondary role ---I am currently Platinum II ---My in game name is: Kat the Mighty ---I Will give my opinions on your play "if you want me to" And i expect others to judge my play as well ---I am very respecting of the opinions of others, and will make adjustments to my play depending on the information given to me if it makes sense to me. ---I work morning shifts 6am - 2pm ---Time zone is EST

Disclaimer: I do expect that i can improve by playing with a team, but i honestly have low trust for them, as without the proper management, they fall apart easily, im not the kind of person to just quit, but if i start to feel like it is becoming a waste of time due to lack of consistency, i will let you know, and after that we may have to part ways if we cant make the right changes. I dont actually expect many, or any people to read this post, or to respond to it positively, but if i dont try then ill feel like i never even made an attempt, thanks for taking time out of your day either way.