I need a friend

I just need a friend.

A friend that I can joke around and have fun with, play games and stay up all night together(maybe c:) .. Someone that won't delete me after a day or so, who won't ditch me.

I just need someone to play with, it can be any game, not just League of Legends. I play other games besides League, I recently bought H1Z1 King of the Kill and I am addicted to it, it's so much fun to play but I've only played it solo. I also play CS:GO and can download any other games if you want.

It's 1 am right now and I was just about to sleep but as always before I sleep I lay there with so much on my mind .. and then I start thinking about my life, about my friends. What friends? I have none, where the hell did they all go? I don't get it, every time I make a new friend we have so much fun together and then the next day it's like ... they forgot about me. Either that or they just delete me out of nowhere, they don't even tell me why.

It's so depressing .. My friend I've known for 4 years doesn't even talk to me anymore, we're only friends on the internet but still. We used to do everything together and now he doesn't even talk to me. He plays with other people besides me, can't even say hi to me. I don't understand what I do wrong because no one will tell me, no one tells me anything.

I think I'm going crazy or maybe I just need some sleep, I really should be sleeping right now. Honestly I have no job or school, I am on my computer from the time I wake up to the time I eventually fall asleep. All by myself .. I try to find people to play with, they add me and they don't even say hi to me. I say hi to them and they just ignore me, why the hell did you add me then? So confusing. ;-;

I don't know why posting this on the internet will help me but it does. Even though you're probably sitting there laughing at me, thinking I fail at life, that or you stopped reading halfway through. But it helps me since I have no one to talk too.

It amazes me how you meet someone and you have the best time ever together. It goes on for about a month or two, maybe even longer and boom, one day it's all gone and you never hear from that person ever again. Why though? Does this happen to anyone else? I honestly feel like I'm going crazy typing this.

:D I just want a friend, that's all. One that won't leave me, someone that will talk to me all day and do stuff with me. Not any weird stuff though, you silly goose. c:

I'm a guy by the way, I am only 19 years old. I don't even have friends IRL either. I have 1 friend who I've known since 4th grade but he is doing things with his life and I'm not, and because of that he has no time to hang out with me or talk with me. I'm just sitting here on my computer doing the same stuff every single day .. I wasn't a loner in school or anything, I had plenty of friends since my school was small but after we graduated they all moved away for college and stuff.

Why am I saying all this stuff? I don't know. :c I'm sad and lonely that's why. > w <

But yeah, I just needed to get this off my chest. I do feel a bit better after typing all of this. :3 I'm not a sad/depressing person to be with by the way, I always try to be happy and make others happy. Hopefully you don't think I'm emo or something, I am far from it! ^^

Is there anyone like me? I know there is, if you are and want to be friends just add me. :3 Sorry for making anyone read all of this nonsense, if you read through all of it that is. :c

Hope you're having a wonderful day/night! ♥