Looking for a group

I am looking for a group (Not a team!) That can help me overcome my performance anxiety.

Even though I am going to get a lot of troll comments/comments that tells me I am a pussy and needs to go die.

Brief history (Ripped right out of my fourm post 3 days ago.) :

I am a level 30, love this game (Although, haven't touched it for a good 5~9 weeks) and most of my games up until now have been Co-op Vs. AI. Now, Back when I started this game, I used to play bots a lot until I got to lvl. 30 and then I jumped into PvP, lost and won games and having fun. But, during this past weeks, I kinda developed a strange and crippling fear of playing PvP. And it is not because of the usual: "Bad Teammates" or "Toxic chat", (I developed immunity, took a looong time) but due to the fear of irrational self-incompetence? (or the My-team-is-going-to-lose-because-of-me syndrome???) Every time I quene up for up for a normal game, I start to tense up and my hands and feet goes cold and starts shaking and then I get extremely negative calling myself an idiot in chat over a mistake I make or develop thoughts that are completely irrational and start thinking that my teammate is going to lose because of me. I tried many ways to combat this and I even gave myself a long break from the game! And this is me coming back after many absence. So, I returned to my roots, currently playing bots. It's when I look at the word: "PvP" is making me nauseous. Trust me, the desire to play with others and have fun is still there, but I just can't bring myself to play PvP......I am trying to ask you guys for help....So.....Help?

I am still getting cold-footed even after I wrote this....Oh Jeez.