Save me. Win 1 lane.

I'm not even in a match right now and yet my allies are dying. That's how bad this season has been for me. Somehow i can gank the same lane 3 times in a row to have nothing come of it. An ally of mine get a kill? ha. So top lane is gonna lose and feed, nothing new. But then.. that's not enough. A fiora is not only up there doing absolutely nothing for nobody. But it actually took this person 25 minutes to get first assist. Let that really sink in. 25 minutes. TWENTY FIVE MINUTES!!! Before this person realized that after the first 3 times you died solo to malphite. You aer not going to come back from being 2 levels behind, half the cs, and watching said malpthite roam around get kills and more assists. 25 full fucking minutes. Insane.

Before this my adc had already died first blood underneath enemy turret at the 3 minute mark. Ok one death. I expect this. Not gonna see an ally get a kill. So while enemy adc and support are gaining levels. They manage to pick off the support who is alone 1v2. Ok, so now enemy lucian has a bf sword, boot and dagger before 5 minutes. And as jungler I'm supposed to pull gold straight out of the air and be able to have items to tank it. Somehow I am able to get down there for a gank and with no death we get two kills. Yay! Of course my mid and top laners are dying while I am bot lane. But that happens. (every game ever all the time always ALWAYS.)

So let's go back to playing league of legends. You know. killing minions in the jungle to get gold and experience. Because as most of you are unaware. When you kill a monster, you get gold. Which allows you to buy items. Crazy right? And sometimes. You have to actually spend maybe 15 to 20 seconds at a camp to do this. And THEN you have to use your champions movespeed, which is not 1000. To walk between the camps. While I'm trying to do this. Allies are dying, and my enemy is both getting kill gold. And what we call cs. plus all the turrets and dragons and stuff.

What I don't understand in all this, is what kind of jollies matchmaking gets out of watching me get anchored down down down down. Matchmaking has to pick two people to play top lane. two people to play mid lane. Why is it that the person that gets put on my side just dies over and over and over again? This completely useless feeder could have just as well been placed on red team. But no. Not for me. The feeder is always on my side. bleeding gold profusely.

I'm looking at my match history and wishing that I had any other game to play. League is such a massive waste of time. I've got like 3 wins in all of my history page. And of all these losses I am certain that my team has had more deaths than minutes played for at least the last ten minutes of the game. Usually its like 42 deaths in 31 minutes. 35 deaths by 25 minutes. It makes no sense to me. Like it's some huge mystery how enemy gets kills. when my allies just allow death after death. I will lose a game where enemy zed can go 22-3-15 and hypercarry with nonstop roaming kills. Then a couple games later I have an ally zed who starts out 0-6-2 by 20 minutes. So enemy zeds can carry mine just feed. 25 minutes before first assist!! HOW?!?!!? If I top lane and it's not going well. I find ways to be useful. I get vision, I roam for kills. I will let my turret drop so I can go somewhere and apply pressure. Do my allies? Rofl.

I'm trying to stick to my main jungle. And all three lanes are hardcore feeding. I try going to my secondary role support. And now 2 lanes are feeding. It doesn't matter.

I do anything, and my allies feed. Even while typing this out and not being in match my team is already 0-12. Disgusting. I am teetering on being anchored into bronze. And maybe that's not such a bad thing. I've previously had hope in passed years that "oh once I get out of bronze my silver allies will know how to play!". Over the past couple years I've dropped that silly dream. I've come to realize that living in silver 5-4 is potentially the absolute bottom of ranked play. It's tricky because you think you have hop of getting somewhere, but overall ppl just fucking feed. I remember in previous seasons back when people knew how to play league. And there was not this much death. Remember playing top lane cho and farming for a half hour before leaving lane? You could do this because nobody took turret before 16 minutes. Now by 16 minutes my team has lost second tier turrets and I can't go out and play as a tank because not only do I have nobody on my side with kills and items I want to place behind me. But the enemy is roaming as a group of 3 or more with combined 10 kills worth of items. I cant do it.

When I've been floating in silver 3, the hyperfeeding seemed to drop off slightly. In my wins, yes I get a few where our team crushes with like 30 kills to their 6. Occasionally yes, I get a player on my team that wins their own lane. But this is so fucking rare it kills my soul. Its fucking league. You don't even have to win your lane, you just have to not lose it. Doesn't anybody know that 15 cs is equal to a kill gold? all you need is 20 cs to buy a small item. another 15-20 to buy another. another 15 and you can put those 2 items together, and now their stat scaling improves and you get a unique skill. You can do this while staying alive and ignore your enemy entirely. You don't have to TRY to kill anybody, you just have to punish their mistakes and not make your own. Once I realized this I became a player who actually wins lane. While my allies are busy losing theirs.

Oh look another 3 ally deaths..

If your in silver-ish and your gonna play ranked anyway. But you actually win your own lane. Let's play. I have become so numb to the losses I just don't care any more and I play back to back. I've been stuck for years in the same situation where I really can't become a stronger player. I just can't. If i were playing in gold and plat and stuff, yeh it'd be different. I would have to work a little harder at my runes and adapt some strats, be picky about who I play. But down here in the trenches, it doesn't matter simply because I cannot possibly grow fast enough to compensate for my ally deaths. I've tried playing outside of my main role a little, and that just goes absolutely horrible. If I get started on a death streak I can't dig myself out. The guy already killed me twice with the items he had 4 minutes ago. And now he has bigger items, I'm not gonna not die! I know this. But again, does an ally come down and help? No, they are too busy bitching about me being bad instead of trying to do something about it. It's not surprising that I have 7 deaths when I only ever see 3 enemies on my screen but not a single ally within half a map of me. I play carry junglers.. team has no tank. I play tank jungler, team has no dmg just deaths. I play support, top feeds. I play top, bot feeds. And there are 4 ally deaths..

Ha oh yeh! I just also remembered how I look at advanced details after match only to see that my adc and support have 0 damage dealt to both objectives and turrets. In a 40 minute game. Yes this is true. 2 players I am forced to play alongside. 0 damage to turrets. 0 damage to objectives. 0 damage to objectives. 0 damage to objectives. 0 damage to objectives. 0 damage to objectives. 0 damage to objectives. 0 damage to objectives. 0 damage to objectives. 0 damage to objectives. ....

I dunno. If I had a couple deaths, I would try to... group up with somebody and get a couple kills so you could push toward enemy nexus. Cause you know, game ends when a nexus is destroyed. We may as well make a slight attempt toward destroying enemy nexus right? 0 damage to turrets.

Wow.