Hi, My name is Doug. I first started playing late season 3, when some friends introduced me to the game. It was chaotic at first because they forced me to play against real people instead of playing against bots. I had never played any online game outside Runescape and similar MMORPGs. I was also missing a mouse which added to the craziness and frustration. After slowly increasing my time spent online my family began to strongly disapprove. I had found high school to be easy so my grades didn't suffer and it was hard for them to find anything to complain about despite my new hobby.
Towards my senior year pressure grew on me to figure out what it was I wanted to do. The constant "I don't knows" and then disappearing into my room for a few hours really started to cause a stir in the house hold. The stress of trying to hide the thing I loved to do most and still please my parents finally got to me and I quit playing. I started to go to the gym, talk to girls, and participate in events the people around me would approve of. It was horrible. I grew unhappy very quickly. I spent quite a few months just doing the things I knew my family would want me to do. In the summer before college I picked up the game again, doing my absolute best trying to hide the fact the I was playing from my family. After summer I went to a college that they wanted me to go to, took classes they strongly approved of, and just did overall whatever made them smile with pride. When college started i found it very hard to motivate myself to go to class. The people around me seemed fake and the college was very money based. The only thing i really learned that semester was how loud money spoke. Every night I went back to my dorm room to do the one thing that I enjoyed and really felt like i was earning my place.
At the end of the second semester things were coming to a head. I had lied about how well I was doing to pretty much everyone and fell into a really steep depression. I went to bed every night wishing any horrible accident I could imagine upon myself. I felt so guilty knowing how much i was disappointing everyone. After a friend intervened, I had to leave the college and spent some time where I could do the only thing that I had wanted to do. Play League. I watched hours of videos on youtube and streams. Within a month and half i went from silver to high plat and 2 days after the season ended I hit diamond. I had very little issue getting back to Diamond this season. I originally wanted to make the post when I reached at least masters, but I am financially running out of time. I still have an incredible amount to learn and I would love to do so on a team. I have a strong work ethic and I love learning and improving. Overall I simply love the game and if I get the opportunity to do so for a living it would mean the world to me. Reaching my maximum potential is my goal. I don't really know what I expect to come from this post but any and every response is welcome.
