A letter to the Music Department
*** (I recommend listening to the league of Legend's Music album on YouTube as you read this. It helped.) ***
Dear fellow fans of this world, Runterra,
My name is Clay, but on the Rift I'm known as VicLannan. I'm 22. It's Almost midnight here in Austin, where I'm attending school and working to try and keep rent and bills flowing, albeit with mixed results. The day was long; Its highs were the classes I'm taking, its low was personal drama, and somewhere in between was a sense of "What the hell am I doing/gonna do?" The whole day a wild ride. I sit down to browse my YouTube subscription box, hopes relatively low for the way the day had gone. Then, just as I was about to finish scrolling down, your Frequencies video pops up. Without mincing words, I am compelled to write to you after watching it.
There are a few points I want to make, so I'll just start with one and go. I don't need to tell you how someone can be passionate about the world you've helped create, the stories you've told, the experiences you've shaped, or the lives you may have touched. After watching Frequencies, I'm confident in saying no one knows it better than you. Although I have been playing since season 1, I never really gave much focus or credit to the richness of this world until I heard *Daylight's End* for the first time. The music is, without a doubt, what charmed me in to learn more. (Heh, "Charmed"...I hate  so much.)
It was around that time that I was soul searching, trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. Before I left high school, I had no idea other than working in video games, so going into college I started out getting an Associates in IT to fund my jump into game design when I hit a 4 year institution. As I went through my semester, more and more did it become apparent that, while I was good at it, I had doubts (ya know, the kind of doubts as to whether or not  was in that bush you don't have a ward in) as to whether or not I wanted to do it for the rest of my life. It scared me, thinking that I'm committing so much time and effort and resources, both present and future, towards a goal I wasn't convinced I wanted. Then *Daylight's End* hit me. It had a weird impact on me, and it didn't answer my question. Or at least, not entirely; I wasn't sure what I wanted to do, but I knew it had something to do with music.
I had always been a fan of not only listening to music, but creating it and performing it. I've been offhandedly, haphazardly composing on a piano and a little Yamaha synth-keyboard, layering arrangements since I was small, but I never thought I could do anything with it practically, and the scare of being a starving artist intimidated me. At the height of that, The Making of Freljord Music invigorated me, and tempted me to do something reckless: It game me the courage to move out of my home in San Angelo, and into a city I have never been in, with a roommate I had never met in person, but knew for a couple years. Oddly enough, I met him through League of Legends.
Now, I'm in my second semester at Austin Community College, in their Music Business and Performance Technology program. The professors here are...I can't really describe them any other way than "legit." They own their own studios, play live, mix and master and perform, all have music jobs when not teaching, and teaching on a personal level as a sort of mission. I couldn't ask for a more dedicated and perfectly passionate set of individuals for my education and to draw insight from. But even then, as I go through Audio Engineering classes, MIDI classes, Music Theory and Music Business classes, I became overwhelmed with the options and paths open to me, and 
came back with a massive, perfectly timed Ult to my confidence. I had no direction; Do I want to pursue Composition? Audio Engineering? Live sound? Maybe production or become a commercial pianist? I had to make a choice to stick with, and none of them resonated with me. I started to regret.
I was never a big fan of 
, but your music video made him the most relatable champion to me. I dive into this world of music, passionate and hopeful, only to have every opportunity or reassurance chased away as I approach. (The tantrum wasn't as violent, but it felt just as massive to me.) And while the music did more for me than the visuals, I suddenly saw myself in that artistic animation. So, I recognized the issue with another epiphany inspired by you. Now what? I still need a direction, a compass or a map. At the end of Today, as I drag my feet into my apartment, the death counter was still ticking down after the ult, and my item bar was looking disappointingly 'out of meta'. Then I watch Frequencies. I should have expected what came next.
As I said, I was never a big fan of and I've very rarely played him. But thanks to you, I know what I want to do. I want to pour my passion into something, into music that can help others break their funk, to 
the 
ult of uncertainty and to easy their fears about their path in life. I want to effect others and give back to a community that has done so much for me. I AM the 2% you mentioned in Frequencies. And even if I have to freakin' live out of my car, I will Bandage toss my dream, and I will 'Curse of the Sad Mummy' it and never let it go. And even if it has 
, even if it has 
and 
, whether it has an entire front line of tanks or every damn summoner spell at its disposal, I will not let it reach fountain without dragging me to it.
Not until GG. F key removed so I can't surrender.
Yours forever thankful, a new Season 5 main,
Clay "VicLannan" E.
(P.s. I've been a fan of the Pentakill band idea since 
's skin released, and I even called Olaf as the perfect candidate for drummer. I cried with my fist in the air and my neck sore from head bangin' the week that came out. Thank you so much. )
song :D