I want Elf Quinn so bad, that if I don't get it I am quitting... forever. Delete account do not sell

I want the greenness like the tracer elf skin...i want that so bad. I am sorta still mad...and no elf quinn...no quinn fix... no teemo nerf. I just want greeen elf quinn...that's all for christmas. I don't know if...I don't know. If I will actually quit... but I would be so so sad. Cute elf quinn...still no money. GOing to try getting donations today...for my stream and....for red bulls and cigarettes...cause mom doesnt like those things. I gotta buy that stuff myself...and pay my mom for bills and stuff...and get gifts for people.. i only really need 10 bucks...but anyway. I'm broke again...so I won't be getting anything I want until I get money paid or donated to... somehow. I stream a lot...on my twitch. Which I may or may not share here...and my paypal which i may or may not share...since i dont know if that is against rules of the forum. I already posted about quinn elf...elf quinn green cool skin...but It got downvoted very very hard. I could have sworn I said something in the forums about a concept character like kindred a long time ago...but that might have been somewhere else. great ideas think alike. I never had any idea to make a lamb or a wolf, but I always have wanted to see a yin and yang type character...shut up...whatever. So when kindred came out...I was like that's the best thing I've ever seen. Like league just read my mind. That's why I love kindred so much. I love her so much. I never really get what I ask for...and I maybe never asked for kindred...but I totally got what I wanted when kindred came out. My friend was like check out the new character and im like ok AND THEN he said IM SURE YOU'LL LOVE IT AND IM LIKE AWTF IS THIS I LOVE IT I REALLY DID AND DO so yeah anyway wow i love kindred and quinn so much thanks riot for making those things i love but quinn skin and ugh ugh the ughs that i feel towards riot is ugh i love you... i hate you... i feel sadly addicted and cant quit but i want to and i want stuff but i shouldnt there are more important things than this game...like bills and family and friends. i cant keep going back... keep me throw me out idk who cares. i just dont agreee you cant make everyone happy and right now i dont feel very happy about anything you guys do or anything happening in my life poor as fuck sad want things cant have try making money so hard so sad give ideas dont get things try to help dont get respect always always looked down upon -dan